Sincerely, ANB

Monday) …the MUUUDDDD!”

Matthew 13:23 ”The seed that fell in the good soil represents those who hear and understand God’s word.”

Tuesday) …the geek!”

Luke 10:27 ”Love the Lord your God with all your heart, your soul, your strength, and your mind. And love your neighbor as yourself.”

Wednesday) …the kid!”

Romans 5:8 ”But God demonstrates his own love for us in this; While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”

Thursday) …the pirate!”

Proverbs 3:5 “Trust the Lord with all your heart (Say what?!! Your heart!!), lead not with your own understanding.”

Friday) …the wheat!”

1 Timothy 4:10 “Our hope is in the Living God, who is the Savior of all people.”

Yay for UGSFAW memory verses! :D

Ohhhh it was such a great week, I’m so sad it’s over ):

…is to on random occasions pay a quick visit to my ex boyfriend’s facebook, look at his photos, and laugh at how much of an absolute idiot that boy is. He has gone from a 9 to a 4 in two years, and his taste in girls has gone from me, to fake-tanned, bleach-blonde, cake-faced, whorish bimbos. I mean really?! It’s moments like these, where I look at what I was once so devastated over losing, and then look at the man that I am so blessed to have found, and truly believe that everything happens for a reason.<3

Share your “everything happens for a reason” stories?

Since when is being sarcastic and honest the same as being “rude”?

Those who know me may think it’s out of character for me to being so distraught over a Formspring question because, frankly, I usually could give a rats ass what cowardly girls on that website have to ask me anonymously, but this one kind of got to me for reasons I am unsure of. My entire life I’ve been told that I am “overly polite,” which apparently can be a bad thing? Personally I think it’s one of my more positive characteristics. An extra “please” or “thank you” and a smile never hurt anyone, did it?! So you can imagine my confusion when someone anonymously asked me why I am so “rude.” And because they couldn’t have been referring to a lack of manners, I assumed they meant my sarcasm and honesty, which, I will admit can be borderline blunt at times. Yes, I am EXTREMELY sarcastic. My friends know that they can hardly take anything I say seriously because I am almost always kidding. And my bluntness has actually only developed over the past year or so, thanks to my change in surrounding and company. Upon leaving my old school, I was so put off by all the fakeness of the people I called my “friends,” that I vowed to never be fake to the people I care about. So if someone asks me a question and they want an honest answer, I am not afraid to give them one. I’m not afraid to call out peoples’ bullshit because I would want my friends to do the same to me. So really, in a way, if I’m blunt, or as I would say honest, with you then that most likely means I really care about you and I want you to know the truth. There are exceptions though, of course. If I’m with a friend and he/she is upset about something and they’ve come to me to vent or for comfort, then yes, I will say things to make them feel better, even if I do not agree 100%. But with that said, if they are completely out of line, again, I have no problem calling their bullshit. I may just do it a bit more gently.

I don’t know, maybe I’m wrong and I come off as rude to some people. And to that, I am sorry they feel that way, but if I may be so blunt, if you don’t want an answer, don’t ask the question.

(:

So I’ve been struggling to find out, recently, what makes me different? What makes me so special, that I truly believe I’m going to make in the music industry? There are literally MILLIONS of kids and teens in the US that aspire to do the same. Thanks to the Disney channel, kids now believe everyone is famous, and that you’re only cool if everyone knows who you are, although they mask this message with their “intent” to say simply follow your dreams. Personally, I think many celebrities would disagree with Disney, and I would even go as far as to say that many would probably agree with me when I say that they really are not all that “cool.” The life of a professional singer has been shown in movies and television to be nothing but traveling and crazy parties and sexy model friends and getting whatever they want, whenever they want. And honestly, I’m sure that they do have their fair share of all that. But, when you think about it, and if you have ever talked to a singer or a “rockstar,” they will surely tell you that most of their lives consist of touring. And touring in itself, consists of traveling NON-STOP, and I mean literally a different city every night (thanks Travis McCoy). Their lives are really nothing but constantly moving and constantly going here and there and being busy all the time and cramming a weeks worth of activities into a single day and trying to make 24 hours into 30. But you know what? I LOVE THAT. I lovvveee being busy. I want nothing more than to see the world and do what I love at the same time! THAT’S the dream!

The college that I (and thousands of other musicians in the world) dream of going to is Berklee College of Music in Boston, MA. It also happens to be the school that the lovely JM attended<3. One thing that I’ve read over and over though, is that at one point, 90 PERCENT of the freshmen at Berklee dropped out by their senior year. That is absolutely incredible! So honestly, one good thing I’ve come up with recently that sets me apart from the rest (or at least a good portion of the rest…) is that I WANT IT. If in some God-willing way I came up with a scholarship or some other form of money to attend Berklee, and then in another God-willing miracle I got accepted into the school, there is ABSOLUTELY NO WAY IN HELL I would waste everything I worked for by dropping out. It wouldn’t be an option EVER. And even if I don’t go to Berklee. Any school! I will never give up on my dreams. It’s simply NOT an option. I will achieve my goals. I will live my dream. And I will be happy (: